For numerous reasons I can't even begin to get into.
I ran my half marathon on Sunday. It was really fun and ridiculously tiring. I realized that I'm not meant for long distance running. That or I just should train more for marathons than for short distance running.
Around the 9th mile, my left leg started to cramp. Then around the 10th both were out. It was the most horrible bunched up muscles pain I've ever felt on my thighs. At one point, my calf on my left leg bunched up so much, that it folded my toes inside my shoes and wouldn't let go. :( Twas a painfully rewarding experience crossing the finish. Thank God for the cheer zones too...those people sure know how to keep a person going.
I also got interviewed on Ocean Drive. I said the silliest answer, but I guess I must've looked like a hardcore enough runner to be interviewed. Sweet.
Now, my muscles are still sore and under heavy reparations. I thought I wouldn't want to do this again, but in retrospect, I had a lot of fun and will probably do the ING next year.
I'm going to finish applying for jobs.
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
Thursday, January 22, 2009
It is a New Year!
And I haven't written in my blog in FOREVER!
So, nothing new, nothing new. Just the usual. I'm depressed cause I can't find a job, I found a job on craigslist that I really really want, but the aholes haven't called me at all and its been a week...so I take it as a "no" I've also been crying a lot at the utter feeling of uselessness that has come over me. I've been hard core searching.
I've put my production dreams aside...for as much as I love it, I cannot sustain a regular income with it. I have a clearer understanding of what I want to do in life...so thats definitely a good thing. While it depresses me so that I cannot find a job, the feeling of anxiety and painful passionate longing for wanting what I can't have has subsided completely. I think Caro has grown up. I think reality has hit and I've left my Hollywood dreams. I've realized its not what I want. While I love running around and getting stuff done, production really wears on me. In 3 days of working, I'd felt like I'd worked 2 weeks without stopping. Imagine doing a movie, much less a one day commercial.
My production dreams will only go as far as short lived commercials. Things that allow me to go home at the end of the day. I've found that to be my true passion. How can I achieve this you ask? Well simple...I've decided to go back to advertising. Where those two reconcile, I have yet to find out. But steady does it! All in good time.
Aside from returning to advertising, I plan on acquiring a steady enough job, so I can either take night classes at a 2 year portfolio art school or self teach myself serious design (which my friend B encourages just by going on lynda.com). I've tried Lynda before. Its good stuff, I just need better equipment, patience, faster internet, and determination. I can achieve all this. Hence, getting a job where I can pay for a new Mac, programs, getting myself into a schedule...etc etc. Anyway, in the end, I really want a nicely finished book. I'm pretty much a powerhouse, I just have to realize my own potential and make it happen. Pretty positive, don't you think? Much different then the Crazy Caro you all know? If I'm totally wrong...please tell me.
Its hard to think clearly right now. Last night, I went to PJ's to play the zombie shooting game Left 4 Dead. Two things: 1) It wasn't as terrifying as I thought and 2) It was FUN as hell!!!!
I was Louis, the black dude. And I picked him because black people seem to survive every horror situation now a days. That and he said "ruf" instead of "roof." I love the authenticity.
Speaking of PJ's, my adrenaline filled night of killing zombies was quickly smashed when I got home at 3 am and realized that I'd brought his car keys back with me in my purse. Woe to me to have to drive back up to his place, which is a half hour north of here. Instead of going back at 3 am, I decided to nap for a few hours and just go in the morning before he had to go to work. Yay for him, boo for me. I'm not used to not sleeping more than 8 hours a night!!! But alas, I went to sleep at 4 am and woke up at 8:30 am.
So, moving on. I think I need to share with you two things.
1. A GLMM of this month (haven't done one of those in a long time)
2. My newest song that I'm in love with.
GLMM (Good Looking Man of the Month)- I bet you guys thought I'd forgotten about this stuff!
David Wenham!
You probably know him best as Faramir from The Lord of the Rings or perhaps as Dilios, the narrator in 300. Either way...he is my hottie for this month! Not only that, but he's Australian! Oh Australia you've done it again! Keep churnin' out those hotties!
This picture deserves a spelled out NYOH! (ño!) Oh David, you are dreamy. :)
Aaand I'm spent. I'll have more to rant about at a later time. Right now, my empty stomach has robbed my train of thought. It was a heist I tell ya.
After checking that my post made sense...I realized that I forgot to add the second thing I wanted to share. The song....DUUUUH! Man, I suck, but at least my train of thought has been returned.
Here's the song, its better if you watch it in HD.
Ryan Gosling is the lead singer and pianist and let me just say...mmmm! Rachel McAdams you are a fool! A FOOL for breaking it off with this guy! Alas, maybe he was the fool too, cause she seems like quite a catch. If she's already moved on to Josh Lucas, as gossip columns are claiming, then I would blame the break up on her...for it seems that she wanted to move on faster. Or could it be that Josh is just a plaything to help her forget? Anyway...I am in love with that song and that video. Most of you will probably hate it. Whatever.
Now to find a patch to save my computer from this Conflicker/Downadup/Kido virus. Something viral/wormish that has apparently affected 10 million computers world wide! Yikes!!!!
Should I also mention about how I watched history be made on the 21st, when Obama took the oath of Presidency and when I'm old I'll look at history books and be like..."I remember this day" just as I'm going to do that when I see all the stuff about 9/11 in those same text books. K, well thats all that seems worth mentioning.
Peas.
So, nothing new, nothing new. Just the usual. I'm depressed cause I can't find a job, I found a job on craigslist that I really really want, but the aholes haven't called me at all and its been a week...so I take it as a "no" I've also been crying a lot at the utter feeling of uselessness that has come over me. I've been hard core searching.
I've put my production dreams aside...for as much as I love it, I cannot sustain a regular income with it. I have a clearer understanding of what I want to do in life...so thats definitely a good thing. While it depresses me so that I cannot find a job, the feeling of anxiety and painful passionate longing for wanting what I can't have has subsided completely. I think Caro has grown up. I think reality has hit and I've left my Hollywood dreams. I've realized its not what I want. While I love running around and getting stuff done, production really wears on me. In 3 days of working, I'd felt like I'd worked 2 weeks without stopping. Imagine doing a movie, much less a one day commercial.
My production dreams will only go as far as short lived commercials. Things that allow me to go home at the end of the day. I've found that to be my true passion. How can I achieve this you ask? Well simple...I've decided to go back to advertising. Where those two reconcile, I have yet to find out. But steady does it! All in good time.
Aside from returning to advertising, I plan on acquiring a steady enough job, so I can either take night classes at a 2 year portfolio art school or self teach myself serious design (which my friend B encourages just by going on lynda.com). I've tried Lynda before. Its good stuff, I just need better equipment, patience, faster internet, and determination. I can achieve all this. Hence, getting a job where I can pay for a new Mac, programs, getting myself into a schedule...etc etc. Anyway, in the end, I really want a nicely finished book. I'm pretty much a powerhouse, I just have to realize my own potential and make it happen. Pretty positive, don't you think? Much different then the Crazy Caro you all know? If I'm totally wrong...please tell me.
Its hard to think clearly right now. Last night, I went to PJ's to play the zombie shooting game Left 4 Dead. Two things: 1) It wasn't as terrifying as I thought and 2) It was FUN as hell!!!!
I was Louis, the black dude. And I picked him because black people seem to survive every horror situation now a days. That and he said "ruf" instead of "roof." I love the authenticity.
Speaking of PJ's, my adrenaline filled night of killing zombies was quickly smashed when I got home at 3 am and realized that I'd brought his car keys back with me in my purse. Woe to me to have to drive back up to his place, which is a half hour north of here. Instead of going back at 3 am, I decided to nap for a few hours and just go in the morning before he had to go to work. Yay for him, boo for me. I'm not used to not sleeping more than 8 hours a night!!! But alas, I went to sleep at 4 am and woke up at 8:30 am.
So, moving on. I think I need to share with you two things.
1. A GLMM of this month (haven't done one of those in a long time)
2. My newest song that I'm in love with.
GLMM (Good Looking Man of the Month)- I bet you guys thought I'd forgotten about this stuff!
David Wenham!
You probably know him best as Faramir from The Lord of the Rings or perhaps as Dilios, the narrator in 300. Either way...he is my hottie for this month! Not only that, but he's Australian! Oh Australia you've done it again! Keep churnin' out those hotties!
This picture deserves a spelled out NYOH! (ño!) Oh David, you are dreamy. :)
Aaand I'm spent. I'll have more to rant about at a later time. Right now, my empty stomach has robbed my train of thought. It was a heist I tell ya.
After checking that my post made sense...I realized that I forgot to add the second thing I wanted to share. The song....DUUUUH! Man, I suck, but at least my train of thought has been returned.
Here's the song, its better if you watch it in HD.
Ryan Gosling is the lead singer and pianist and let me just say...mmmm! Rachel McAdams you are a fool! A FOOL for breaking it off with this guy! Alas, maybe he was the fool too, cause she seems like quite a catch. If she's already moved on to Josh Lucas, as gossip columns are claiming, then I would blame the break up on her...for it seems that she wanted to move on faster. Or could it be that Josh is just a plaything to help her forget? Anyway...I am in love with that song and that video. Most of you will probably hate it. Whatever.
Now to find a patch to save my computer from this Conflicker/Downadup/Kido virus. Something viral/wormish that has apparently affected 10 million computers world wide! Yikes!!!!
Should I also mention about how I watched history be made on the 21st, when Obama took the oath of Presidency and when I'm old I'll look at history books and be like..."I remember this day" just as I'm going to do that when I see all the stuff about 9/11 in those same text books. K, well thats all that seems worth mentioning.
Peas.
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