I'm annoyed...

My clear skin has broke out again...ugh. No matter what I try. How annoying.

I must have nothing more to rant about, since I'm ranting about my skin. I just hate how it gets, then I have to treat it and blah blah. This all happened when I started drinking alcohol again. I'm sure of it.

So, my musical kindred Omar sent me a song that I'm completely in love with. Unfortunately, it sounds like something out of a bad action movie, like a slow mo sexy scene between Vin Diesel and some bad actress. It also reminds me of a grungy stripper, but I still love it. Here it is:



Enjoy! It gets better if you listen to it over and over again.

So, a few weeks ago, I had this weird post. I think I got people reading into it too much. Sorry for any confusion. Its just stupid because its about this dude that broke my heart and haunted my dreams. I think I'm completely over the whole thing now...for really real. Its not like its been an ever present thought, just something that's bugged me for some time. I've just decided not to dwell on stuff...I think I do that too much. Everyone tells me I over analyze everything. Its very true. I can't help that, and I'll continue to do it, but I just shouldn't make myself so miserable.

Lately I've been in my head too much. Kind of trapped. I try to keep occupied, but I'm just home so much, looking for jobs and trying to jump start my other projects. Its hard to stay on course, jobs are so bad right now. If I tried to go for a "normal" job, I'm not even sure where to look. I've been doing production for a while now, and I can honestly say that I love it. I love every minute of it. No matter how stressful and how hectic it can get. I love it. This is what I was meant to do, and I'm going to freaking do it. Just seems like jobs are a bit slow and I crave the stability of a job so much. Just to help out at home, while I live here, you know?

So, aside from being inside my head too much...I've been trying to develop a website for myself. Man is it hard to motivate oneself. I have an ideal, I just think its going to be really expensive. I should also probably stop getting bummed out about what to do with my life. I should enjoy and learn as I go right? I've been, it just seems slow. Everything is slow. I'll stop here, cause this could turn into some political rant that I don't even talk about.

Well, its 3:30 am and I'm not tired. I have this wash of happiness come over me. I feel like I got positive all of a sudden. Well, here's to a good day tomorrow.