I'm back. Took a little bit of a break because I've been working. Working so much so, that I'm now suffering from lowered immunities and fighting off a damn cold.
AND the worst part is that I'm traveling on Thursday to a sweet farm, where I will spend a wonderful and nature-filled weekend. I have three days to get better.
Nothing much to write about, just trying to understand the world that I live in. Isn't that the norm in us humans? I'm constantly trying to understand the human psyche and why we do the things we do. I think my efforts are fruitless sometimes, for I will never understand some people. Lately, I've learned that there are some serious cowards in this world. People that can't face their reality and come up with a million excuses as to why they shouldn't face the problems in front of them. Not making sense? Well, I don't know if I can make sense at this time. I have so many thoughts floating in my head and they're not even directly my problems to be thinking about! Just know that my family is hurting and I feel so helpless to make anyone feel any better. I think thats why I bury myself with work, so I don't have to think about these things. Sometimes thats easier.
Does that make me a coward?
Sunday, May 20, 2012
Thursday, March 15, 2012
Wednesday, March 07, 2012
Slow and steady should win the race...
Because I don't know how to sell myself in order to get jobs. I don't do fluff and I don't build myself up as something I'm not when I meet people. For example, in interviews. I'm going to meet you, tell you what I want to do, and be truthful about my experience. I don't do big egos and I don't ever say I'm capable of doing something I'm not. Flat and honest truth and hopefully you can believe me and work with that.
You want me to brag about myself? Yes, I think I'm excellent at my job. People who frequently work with me and even out of towners that I briefly work with will tell me I'm "amazing." And you know what? I'm fucking awesome at my job. You'll be lucky to have me on your team, because I will work my ass off, I will be organized, I will learn what needs to be learned, I'm pretty damn good with technology, I will come up with solutions, and I will man up like you can't imagine. The problem is, you kind of have to see me in action in order to believe it.
I hate interviews, you can't judge someone by meeting them for 6 minutes. We can't have a conversation about my experience and then expect me to ask YOU questions. What do you need me to ask you? Your sign? Your favorite color? C'mon, we all know how this industry works, just tell me when I work and let's do this shit!
I guess thats not enough for some people. Instead of saying anything, they just leave you hanging, even though they say they'll let you know by (insert deadline). Then when you politely send a follow up email, they never even reply...not even 3 weeks overdue. I think I should diffuse my train of thought before I get myself in trouble. Not like anyone reads this, but you never know.
Commence Digression: I just needed to vent about what an exemplary employee I am and those that choose not to hire me can eat shit.
You want me to brag about myself? Yes, I think I'm excellent at my job. People who frequently work with me and even out of towners that I briefly work with will tell me I'm "amazing." And you know what? I'm fucking awesome at my job. You'll be lucky to have me on your team, because I will work my ass off, I will be organized, I will learn what needs to be learned, I'm pretty damn good with technology, I will come up with solutions, and I will man up like you can't imagine. The problem is, you kind of have to see me in action in order to believe it.
I hate interviews, you can't judge someone by meeting them for 6 minutes. We can't have a conversation about my experience and then expect me to ask YOU questions. What do you need me to ask you? Your sign? Your favorite color? C'mon, we all know how this industry works, just tell me when I work and let's do this shit!
I guess thats not enough for some people. Instead of saying anything, they just leave you hanging, even though they say they'll let you know by (insert deadline). Then when you politely send a follow up email, they never even reply...not even 3 weeks overdue. I think I should diffuse my train of thought before I get myself in trouble. Not like anyone reads this, but you never know.
Commence Digression: I just needed to vent about what an exemplary employee I am and those that choose not to hire me can eat shit.
Wednesday, February 22, 2012
When you've got nothing to truly stress about...
You stress about EVERYTHING!
This is my life, this is how I always feel and I'm pretty sure its the only way I've ever been able to function. I've felt like this through school, through work, and through life thus far. How the hell do you stop? I guess its called relaxing and I really don't know how to do it. Its 11:30 at night, I don't have any work or any pending deadlines and yet I feel extremely anxious. Like I'm slacking off and not doing something I should be doing and I'm running out of time. I have a number of things swimming around in my head as to what I think are the culprits to my feeling like this...thinking about listing them is even overwhelming me.
1. I found a "mentor" to help me finally get into screenwriting. We met about a week and a half ago and I was supposed to write a scene and send it to him LAST week. So, that is the pending, way overdue deadline that I should just type up and get it the hell out of the way. What am I waiting for? Do I want to write or not?
2. Getting the ball rolling on my house searching. I have names of at least 3 realtors that people have suggested, and I know that I want to buy my house soon, so what the heck am I waiting for? Is it fear, comfort, or laziness that stops me from actually getting this going? With such an unsure future as to what jobs I will do next, I feel like that is my excuse to prolong the search. "Unsure future on what jobs will come next" is basically my life for the next few years.
3. Do I want to do costumes/wardrobe for the majority of my career? Sure, with the exception that I need to step it up and get creative. I want to CREATE costumes, maybe not be a costume designer, but just for the sake of creation, making my own fun costumes. I've been tinkering with the thoughts of making my own Battle Angel costume and Predator costume for YEARS now...and here I am, just tinkering with the thought. All I do is think and think and I don't DO enough.
4. I have a job this upcoming weekend/week, with an out of town stylist. Okay, no problem. I've worked with many out of town stylists and they've all been nice and I've been happy to assist them. So then, WHY am I so nervous about working with this one? Every time I work with a new stylist, I feel anxious like this. Like the feeling of impending doom or failure. Perhaps I need to man up and stop stressing about the uncontrollable future.
5. Before I got into costumes/wardrobe I wanted to be a makeup artist...so then, why the hell am I in wardrobe? I get so mad at myself because I've been watching that show Face Off on SyFy and telling myself that this is what I wanted to do. But then I think about it realistically and I also want to do what I'm doing now.
You just can't do EVERYTHING Caro. Or can you?
This is my life, this is how I always feel and I'm pretty sure its the only way I've ever been able to function. I've felt like this through school, through work, and through life thus far. How the hell do you stop? I guess its called relaxing and I really don't know how to do it. Its 11:30 at night, I don't have any work or any pending deadlines and yet I feel extremely anxious. Like I'm slacking off and not doing something I should be doing and I'm running out of time. I have a number of things swimming around in my head as to what I think are the culprits to my feeling like this...thinking about listing them is even overwhelming me.
1. I found a "mentor" to help me finally get into screenwriting. We met about a week and a half ago and I was supposed to write a scene and send it to him LAST week. So, that is the pending, way overdue deadline that I should just type up and get it the hell out of the way. What am I waiting for? Do I want to write or not?
2. Getting the ball rolling on my house searching. I have names of at least 3 realtors that people have suggested, and I know that I want to buy my house soon, so what the heck am I waiting for? Is it fear, comfort, or laziness that stops me from actually getting this going? With such an unsure future as to what jobs I will do next, I feel like that is my excuse to prolong the search. "Unsure future on what jobs will come next" is basically my life for the next few years.
3. Do I want to do costumes/wardrobe for the majority of my career? Sure, with the exception that I need to step it up and get creative. I want to CREATE costumes, maybe not be a costume designer, but just for the sake of creation, making my own fun costumes. I've been tinkering with the thoughts of making my own Battle Angel costume and Predator costume for YEARS now...and here I am, just tinkering with the thought. All I do is think and think and I don't DO enough.
4. I have a job this upcoming weekend/week, with an out of town stylist. Okay, no problem. I've worked with many out of town stylists and they've all been nice and I've been happy to assist them. So then, WHY am I so nervous about working with this one? Every time I work with a new stylist, I feel anxious like this. Like the feeling of impending doom or failure. Perhaps I need to man up and stop stressing about the uncontrollable future.
5. Before I got into costumes/wardrobe I wanted to be a makeup artist...so then, why the hell am I in wardrobe? I get so mad at myself because I've been watching that show Face Off on SyFy and telling myself that this is what I wanted to do. But then I think about it realistically and I also want to do what I'm doing now.
You just can't do EVERYTHING Caro. Or can you?
Tuesday, February 14, 2012
Werewolves, and Vampires, and Liam Neeson!
Oh my!
Yes, this is that post I've been slacking off writing for about 2 or 3 weeks. I had it mentally written in my head and then I just forgot to type it out. So, quick recap on reviews as to what I've been watching lately okay?
First, lets start with what the big screen stuff. Last month, I went to see Underworld Awakening. Like the whole Resident Evil franchise, this is another franchise that I love and will buy in to no matter what. The first Underworld...LOVE, and all the others that followed have been decently entertaining.
While this sequel was utterly and actiony enjoyable with loads of gore and 3D monsters to satisfy, I have to say it lacked the "heart" that the others had. It felt rushed, action sequence after action sequence of KB kicking all sorts of ass looking for her beloved Michael. Who by the way, is NOT played by Scott Speedman, because I imagine, he is too good of an actor and too serious to come back and play the only role he's actually known for, besides Ben from Felicity. Damn you Scott Speedman, major points off! It was actually disturbing to watch the uncredited actor that played him because it completely took away from the believability of the "romance" that is between Selene and Michael. Another thing, this flick seemed to take ques on the action quality presented to us in Resident Evil. All of a sudden, Selene is like Alice except she kills everyone and not just T-Virus mutated zombies, all the while saying kitschy one liners. Well, what can you do, whats done is done and no wonder it had a January release. It was still quite a bit of fun on a Saturday night. And I'll probably buy the Blu Ray.
Another flick I saw shortly after was The Grey, starring my one and only hero, Liam Neeson. How can it be that in his 60s, this man has completely reinvented himself with so much badassery that it doesn't matter who's ass he's kicking, as long as he's kicking something.
There are many who think this movie is Taken vs wolves. Oh how wrong the trailers have led us to believe. To put it simply, its a story of survival in the Alaskan wilderness. And not just Liam Neeson's survival, but a group of people. Very similar to the movie Alive, but with no cannibalism and really big famished wolves. Anyway, the movie was great, don't listen to the haters that hate the ending.
And on the little screen...
So, after watching Underworld Awakening, I noticed that one of the antagonists in that flick is my super hot new celebrity crush, Kris Holden-Ried, who I also happened to notice in commercials for a new SyFy tv show called Lost Girl. Although its not new in the making, since its been playing in Canada for X amount of years, its newly released in the States.
I started watching Lost Girl, basically because of Kris Holden-Ried, because I actually fell in love with his voice, more than his looks. Then his looks grew on me. He kind of looks like Coldplay (yes, just Coldplay), but he really has a dreamy voice. What are the chances that in Underworld he was a werewolf and on Lost Girl he is a werewolf too, obviously adding to my love! Oh and I dug through 4 shelves of 2 different closing down Blockbusters in order to collect 3 seasons of The Tudors, which also has KHR. (Um...weirdo loser much?)
Since I don't do full GLMM entries anymore, this will be it. (Remember, I used to do Good Looking Man of the Month entries?)
Also on SyFy, we're in the second season of the only other show I follow on TV, and that is Being Human. Yes, the American version. Oh hush up haters! I've watched both the British and American versions and I like both of them equally. The American version is taking a different route, which I kind of like more than the British. My guess for the change is probably because in the British version Aidan leaves to become a dwarf in the new Hobbit movies and who knows if Sam Witwer will ever leave to be an Apprentice again. (Sometimes I wonder if people know understand my useless blather about these actors).
Anyway, Being Human, second season, and hopefully going strong.
Okay, so this has been a very supernatural post. Speaking of which, I've taken up the hobby of screenwriting and gotten myself a sort of mentor (finally). And he gave me an assignment to write a scene. I'm writing a supernatural one, and its been almost a week, so I better go work on it.
Oh yeah, Happy Valentines Day.
Yes, this is that post I've been slacking off writing for about 2 or 3 weeks. I had it mentally written in my head and then I just forgot to type it out. So, quick recap on reviews as to what I've been watching lately okay?
First, lets start with what the big screen stuff. Last month, I went to see Underworld Awakening. Like the whole Resident Evil franchise, this is another franchise that I love and will buy in to no matter what. The first Underworld...LOVE, and all the others that followed have been decently entertaining.
While this sequel was utterly and actiony enjoyable with loads of gore and 3D monsters to satisfy, I have to say it lacked the "heart" that the others had. It felt rushed, action sequence after action sequence of KB kicking all sorts of ass looking for her beloved Michael. Who by the way, is NOT played by Scott Speedman, because I imagine, he is too good of an actor and too serious to come back and play the only role he's actually known for, besides Ben from Felicity. Damn you Scott Speedman, major points off! It was actually disturbing to watch the uncredited actor that played him because it completely took away from the believability of the "romance" that is between Selene and Michael. Another thing, this flick seemed to take ques on the action quality presented to us in Resident Evil. All of a sudden, Selene is like Alice except she kills everyone and not just T-Virus mutated zombies, all the while saying kitschy one liners. Well, what can you do, whats done is done and no wonder it had a January release. It was still quite a bit of fun on a Saturday night. And I'll probably buy the Blu Ray.
Another flick I saw shortly after was The Grey, starring my one and only hero, Liam Neeson. How can it be that in his 60s, this man has completely reinvented himself with so much badassery that it doesn't matter who's ass he's kicking, as long as he's kicking something.
There are many who think this movie is Taken vs wolves. Oh how wrong the trailers have led us to believe. To put it simply, its a story of survival in the Alaskan wilderness. And not just Liam Neeson's survival, but a group of people. Very similar to the movie Alive, but with no cannibalism and really big famished wolves. Anyway, the movie was great, don't listen to the haters that hate the ending.
And on the little screen...
So, after watching Underworld Awakening, I noticed that one of the antagonists in that flick is my super hot new celebrity crush, Kris Holden-Ried, who I also happened to notice in commercials for a new SyFy tv show called Lost Girl. Although its not new in the making, since its been playing in Canada for X amount of years, its newly released in the States.
I started watching Lost Girl, basically because of Kris Holden-Ried, because I actually fell in love with his voice, more than his looks. Then his looks grew on me. He kind of looks like Coldplay (yes, just Coldplay), but he really has a dreamy voice. What are the chances that in Underworld he was a werewolf and on Lost Girl he is a werewolf too, obviously adding to my love! Oh and I dug through 4 shelves of 2 different closing down Blockbusters in order to collect 3 seasons of The Tudors, which also has KHR. (Um...weirdo loser much?)
Since I don't do full GLMM entries anymore, this will be it. (Remember, I used to do Good Looking Man of the Month entries?)
Also on SyFy, we're in the second season of the only other show I follow on TV, and that is Being Human. Yes, the American version. Oh hush up haters! I've watched both the British and American versions and I like both of them equally. The American version is taking a different route, which I kind of like more than the British. My guess for the change is probably because in the British version Aidan leaves to become a dwarf in the new Hobbit movies and who knows if Sam Witwer will ever leave to be an Apprentice again. (Sometimes I wonder if people know understand my useless blather about these actors).
Anyway, Being Human, second season, and hopefully going strong.
(Insert obligatory image of show)
Okay, so this has been a very supernatural post. Speaking of which, I've taken up the hobby of screenwriting and gotten myself a sort of mentor (finally). And he gave me an assignment to write a scene. I'm writing a supernatural one, and its been almost a week, so I better go work on it.
Oh yeah, Happy Valentines Day.
Monday, February 13, 2012
Saturday, January 28, 2012
Hrm...perhaps...
This is too much white. I'm currently not at home and on my computer, so I cannot choose a background image to my liking. I've used one from the Blogger template and will try it out for now to get away from the busy background I used to have. I've decided to go "clean." Let us see how this works out.
In other news, I just bought this wonderful little product called: Cococare: 100% Cocoa Butter "The Yellow Stick."
Seeing as how the package is rather retro looking, I know that this product has been around for ages. The only reason I picked it up was because I was talking to a make up artist friend on set the other day, and I told her my face was all dry due to our recent "cold spell" in sunny South Florida. She suggested I try a cocoa butter stick and voila! I found this at Walgreens the other day for a $1.39. Sweet deal! Now I can't stop putting it on! I used to use cocoa butter as a skin lotion long ago in college...but I got very bored of putting it on, so I stopped. Ah laziness.
What else can I tell you? I recently purchased a bunch of DVDs at my local Blockbuster. It is sad to see the Blockbuster that I grew up with close down tomorrow. I spent so much of my childhood walking up to that Blockbuster and renting VHS tapes or Super Nintendo games. I bought so many movies there, during my movie-obsessed childhood years. I went in on Thursday and spent about an hour and a half combing through all of the aisles looking for good finds. I bought about 22 DVDs for 30 dollars. I got all 3 seasons of The Tudors (give or take a disc or two), plus a few flicks I've been wanting to see, but not spend more than a dollar on to see. Also got African Cats on blu ray, which I have been curious to watch since it came out and yes indeed, it was the first one I watched when I got home. Great documentary.
Ah the little things that make me happy.
In other news, I just bought this wonderful little product called: Cococare: 100% Cocoa Butter "The Yellow Stick."
Seeing as how the package is rather retro looking, I know that this product has been around for ages. The only reason I picked it up was because I was talking to a make up artist friend on set the other day, and I told her my face was all dry due to our recent "cold spell" in sunny South Florida. She suggested I try a cocoa butter stick and voila! I found this at Walgreens the other day for a $1.39. Sweet deal! Now I can't stop putting it on! I used to use cocoa butter as a skin lotion long ago in college...but I got very bored of putting it on, so I stopped. Ah laziness.
What else can I tell you? I recently purchased a bunch of DVDs at my local Blockbuster. It is sad to see the Blockbuster that I grew up with close down tomorrow. I spent so much of my childhood walking up to that Blockbuster and renting VHS tapes or Super Nintendo games. I bought so many movies there, during my movie-obsessed childhood years. I went in on Thursday and spent about an hour and a half combing through all of the aisles looking for good finds. I bought about 22 DVDs for 30 dollars. I got all 3 seasons of The Tudors (give or take a disc or two), plus a few flicks I've been wanting to see, but not spend more than a dollar on to see. Also got African Cats on blu ray, which I have been curious to watch since it came out and yes indeed, it was the first one I watched when I got home. Great documentary.
Ah the little things that make me happy.
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